dear trevor

We haven't talked for months, I will call soon. The book is available on Amazon, you can just order it, and when we see each other I will inscribe it for you. I am going to Seattle for a conference in August, and I will be stopping in Salt Lake and can come by and see you and Arielle, somehow. It is funny to me that she won.

The problem in our relationship was that you never fell in love with me. I fell in love with you, hard, after a healthy year, but you were never in love with me, not once. You liked me, you liked me as much as you could, but you were never in love with me. I'm not sure how that happened — we would have been perfect — but you never felt that for me.

For a long time, I thought that you were the first man that I had ever fallen in love with, but I think this is actually not true, I think I was in love with Jason, who I talked a lot about, before you. But you were kind, and you listened, and you got my sense of humor, and you enjoyed my antics, you liked me, but you did not fall in love with me. I think I did everything that I could — within my talents — but you would not love me. In the end, it is fine, you liked me so intensely, you liked me so extraordinarily, but for whatever reason you did not fall in love with me.

You have treated me very well, you are kind and smart, and you did right by me throughout. You are deeply kind — never dismissive, never distracted, always loyal and caring. I am no longer in love with you — not sure why — but it is a relief. I'll call soon, it's been a while, you will like the book.

Love,

Michael