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andy pink, in his drawers!

back from the appointment with my psychiatrist, goodman, in lexington, she is very good, is working at her ctr because it takes medicaid patients, which pays less than most private insurance companies, which is just, and i like her (which says a lot, she is only the second psychiatrist i've had that i thought was worth the trek) — the drugs are stable, all is fixed, everything is well, and we both sense that i won't be going inpatient at least for a while if at all — the situation has become stable and simple. rich: my mental illness is difficult, but i am ultimately responsible for it, i have family and friends that help me, and i do not expect you, as my future boyfriend, to have to deal with any difficulties that arise hereon, so please rest assured and relax, it really is all good.

speaking of: i tried to design a new fryebox quiz for you (in addition to the match andy, which was written exclusively for you, and possibly read only by you) — the new quiz is called: "About Michael's Manic Depression: Calming Rich's Nerves" — I spent the early afternoon trying to get it to work off the Match Andy page (and the Bipolar Tips top ten page) but i can't get it to work. I only wrote 10 questions — it's both serious/informative and funny/playful — but i could add more if the thing fucking worked properly. It (you) are so important to me that I splurged for the pro version of fryebox (labor/cost of love) but i still can't get it to work. this has been a frustration, and i'm trying not to associate the early afternoon's technological dysfunction with you. i suppose you're too short to fit into the ethical domain of responsibility.

thanks for buying and reading Pervert-Schizoid-Woman, I can see that you think it sucked dick but i wouldn't change a thing and have received compliments from the people who actually understand it.

you will have to make the move and do your part. i'm not coming to 1369. it's too much for me. if we're together, i'll come every morning you work and listen to your humorous banter with your co-workers (i still have a minor crush on the indie guy who works the cash; no feelings for rainbow hair who works the kitchen). i hope we can make this work — a gay couple of boyfriends, one prep the other punk, is a pretty good match for the public eye. if you don't want to meet in public, you'll have to come over to my place, we're former neighbors, it's the mit hood, and you can borrow my computer while i nap.

top 10 reasons rich is still scared/ashamed to come over:

1. rich has lingering feelings for the ex-bf (i'm doubtful rich has an ex, but it's possible i guess)

2. rich can't find his bottle of viagra

3. rich doesn't have a prescription for cialas

4. rich is still nervous about michael's mental illness*

5. rich is wary of the open relationship (this really is a must, since rich is young and should be dancing with the other hung)

6. intimidation, inferiority issues

7. rich is a virgin and concerned (etc)

8. rich is a slut and concerned (etc)

9. anxious that michael won't ultimately like him (possible)

10. michael is fat (they weighed me in lexington and i'm 169 lbs, which is normal for 6'0, though i am committed to dropping 10 lbs so i will be acceptable to your parents when you tell them we are together

i'm trying, rich. i'm so excited to begin our existence (in a french accent) together — figure out how to get over here — bring a friend if necessary!

love michael