Falling objects

Andy, underground, or at least on the floor, on his back — ?

This morning I will be researching and writing, i need only prep for class on sunday, the day before i'm coming out again. We do the famous sontag essay on camp, and will be liked by the students. This morning has been a wreck: i have managed to disperse (materially and abstractly) all of these various — drop — from my hands, i suppose the worst part being way too tight jeans and new new balance kicks that i am desperately trying to keep brand new; difficult when you walk 3-4 miles/day.

I've dropped: keys, wallet, pill, can of seltzer, there must be others, but the morning has been a genocidal catastrophe. The clinging jeans not only are painful, all around, but they make me salty and snarky — islands that i do not want to return to, though i do ("mixed").

I found a cute barista (as is my fantasmatic narration) at the peet's in harvard square. I now have to figure out the general shift schedule, and i'll be good. I will describe him later, too tied right now. i sense that i might drop the macbook pro if i were to work on the shiny (and empty) desk.

As for Rich, I'm sorry it is over. We had a good run, and it's disappointing. But I already have a roaming eye, and think I have settled with another barista — of course — and so Rich will be a distant memory, maybe in 3 weeks. I do want to thank Rich for dutifully reading my books, and i seem to be delighted that he did the match andy, almost in full, with many of the right (D, funniest) answers.

I also wanted to tell you a bit about yesterday: there are no black students in the class (I thought noticeable); and there is one little person who is truly little: his head is the size of a baseball. He seems very nice, and interested in the class. This will be new for me and it will be illuminating as to how I respond in person, in class. When I spotted him in class I took a twice-over, which must be very common for him: who wouldn't take a double-take? but that said, i felt terrible about joining the double-takers (who are probably everyone) in our daftness. I wonder if he has many friends at this college. i of course as a student would most definitely befriend him, but that's only because i am 46 (not a student obviously) and also because i have more experience, these students (surprisingly almost all girls) are straight off the boat, think they know everything when they actually know nothing. Problem here. softball head with be my project of the semester: myself.

Love andy p