The future of sex

I imagine that Rich has abandoned the site, and has perhaps lost interest in me, something offensive about the website, the fact sheet, happens frequently I must say, all of this is usually playful digs and fanciful riffs about myself.

I thought we had reconnected — albeit in a strange format — but he has since disappeared after text, music, and match. I told him that the fact sheet might upset him, so he probably read parts of it.

These are possible reasons that he has dropped out, again:

1. He's not a good person

2. He's ashamed and/or fearful

3. He's returned to his original racist dismissal of me

4. He's moved on (unlikely so quickly)

5. He's afraid that my mental illness will get in the way

My responses:

1. I doubt this. He seemed like a very kind person in the store, except for the shade crutch.

2. These traits — shame and fear — are the underlying emotions of his subjectivity, esp given that he is young and gay. These are common affects for queer people generally, I don't hold it against him.

3. Very possible, esp if he read the fact sheet against my advice.

4. Our crushes for each other are pretty hardcore. For me, I am totally crazy about him. I imagine he feels the same way, surely felt so in the store.

5. For Rich: What might surprise you is the satisfaction that you might take in helping me out during my up or down times. Generally, people like to help, and if you are a decent person (see 1.) then you will probably be happy to aid me if it comes to that, but possibly never.

The other option is that he has a small dick (see 2.). If that is the case, we will be limited to you blowing me, me fucking you, and making out, etc. My wager is that you have a dick like mine, which is perfect.