Update, Olay

andy pink, 249 hurley street, 1f, east cambridge, ma 02141, live —

i haven't updated the fact sheet in a bit; i had tried to corral the texts into a memoir of sorts — and it looks good layout/formally, and i dated it, sort of, and it's divided into brief chapters, about 200 of them, but i want to cut and edit and move, so it will be some time yet before it appears in print. in the interim, i finished "(a)sexuality" and "homosexual" and copies are in fact arriving today for me to take a look at, though they are already up on amazon i think, i can make changes if i notice any glaring issues on the covers, but i'm pleased with "homosexual," "(a)sexual" less so, but everything is finally re proofread and re edited, and so i can genuinely move on to new materials. the memoir can wait. "homosexual" (in scare quotes in the title) is dedicated to rich, i think it's nice, i feel strongly for him, and so i will give him a copy when we walk or he can order a copy online, it is highly recommended to own a copy of a book that is decidicated to you (note to sarah and sarah). the next book up, which is strictly in the research phase, is "revolution and cultural studies" — load after load after load to read.

i have been using olay regenerist (which was recommended to me inpatient 3 years ago, by a really hot guy that i made out with in the private bathroom on our floor) — not in a mean way, just in a polite bye the bye, olay might help. anyway, i think it has helped! jon noticed a "certain glow" and jeff has been licking my face profusely, obviously in agreement.

my mom has breast cancer, like "reyna" (nee reni) did, some 25 years ago. i will go with my mom to the initial oncologist appt tomorrow and we will find out how bad the situation is. pizza for dinner. i will stay over there tomorrow night with jeff, some buffer time, then i have to take her to an eye appoitntment on friday morning, then home. i talked to sarah about it (who i had breakfast with on sunday, her mother died of lung cancer a couple of years ago and she was the primary caretaker) — she said to expect a lot of waiting time, so my mom has assigned us a book to read together, "the beautiful and the damned" by fitzgerald, we will read that together as we wait. for whatever reason, i am optimistic about the situation — and will get a dose of reality, any which way, at tomorrow's appointment — but i have committed to be the one to take her to her appointments and to be with her. her partner (my step-father is 91, and housebound at this point, so it's up to me) can't do much. my mom is almost 80 and so i'm hoping that if intervention is possible that it be minimal, she is a small lady, with chicken legs, and i don't want her to be overwhelmed with western poison. we will probably wait to tell my uncle (her brother) as he makes health a moral issue (he is macrobiotic) and i fiercely disagree with that (it's dumber but more cruel than pay-as-you-go private health insurance). the spot on the mammogram was supposedly very small, but the biopsy came back positive, and she had an ultrasound last week. i think there are already appointments booked, so i will be in the wings ready, i am committed to her, love and care, and i feel strongly that she can prevail, and if not, i feel just as strongly that i will prevail.

for rich: if the usa visitor is you: then you are clearly not out to your parents. i'm not sure what the "reyna" (reni) citation is about, but perhaps you have some relationship to cancer that i wouldn't know about yet. in any case, the photoshoot is 1/25-26, the cleaners come 1/27, and i'll be ready — if you so see me fit — on 2/1. i look good. haircut next week.

love andy

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