Daily Living (4)

andy, from 249 furley street, east cambridge, with jeff —

this is true: i have graphomania. my highs tend to be exquisitely euophoric, embarrassingly grandiose, and incredibly verbal and textual. graphomania is a good way to channel the energy and fever, and it's a good thing that i can touch type as otherwise my fingers would bleed to immortality. one question i have about operation andy pink's bag is: does rich have access to the camera on my computer? what's more: does he have access to my computer in its entirety? i wouldn't really put it past his talent, or this gambit, but it's a bit concerning. i am in favor of stalking (me), but i would never do such a thing to someone else, even if i believed that all is fair in love and war (and i do).

jeff needs to go out — but the extraordinary inspiration of rich's stalking is so amazing to me, so beautiful and human, even if it is a superhuman talent, that i can't help but key to him all of the time, despite schoolwork, manuscript work, and cuddling with jeff. (i also have to cut my toenails which are currently in a dreadful state and need at least a modicum of attention; i tend to have sex with my socks on, rich, though if you're a footie, then i'll remove my bombas).

rich's things are music and computers, so we have the opportunity — since we are two creatives, two boyfriends, and impoverished — to commit acts of artistic collaboration. this is quite exciting for me. I worked with an artist to do illustrations/graphics for Pervert-Schizoid-Woman, and need someone exciting and talented to work with for upcoming projects. as a cultural studies enthusiast i am interdisciplinary to my groin and so having another artistic hand would be fabulous for my future endeavors. if need be, we can do a collab over the computer, assuming you have access to my camera and computer, but i think it would be hotter to do it in person. i have a drawing board and a windows laptop that i don't know how to use, you can have that. i also have a small, vintage microscope from the labs of amherst college from the 1960s that you can have. it's almost useless to me, except as a period/conversation piece. he went to mit!

i think you will love jeff, he is a mix, sort of a lab, and very sweet, stoic, affectionate, and perfect. well, jon's dog, max, is the perfect one, but jeff is strictly divine, at least to me. imagine walking him together! these are the things that we can do in the public together. i am waiting by the window at 249 furley street for the ups truck, as i'm supposed to get a delivery from j.crew before 6 — for the halloween costume. they are all size mediums now, at 169, to be at 160 for rich. true story: of punk, i only know black flag and sonic youth (my friend lisa did her dissertation on them in grad school). unless you like korn and linken park, which i assume you don't, as they are not indie punk enough for you, probably. white trash punk? i think we will do well with pop/dance, indie/punk, and i'll take this opportunity on the fact sheet to say that i apologize for dissing your music on the initial bleakswanpublications website that you posted, i assume it was your work, i didn't pick that up, and also it didn't seem punk, so i assumed it was a message (without lyrics, tough to decipher) rather than your own work. i don't remeber it, maybe you can serenade me at 249 furley street with your tune.

yeah, i am totally in love with you. it's very strange. i've never fallen in love at first sight (my sight, i guess not yours, which is fine), and i felt magical in the store while you worked and i wrote. those were the days. by the by: if you're uncut, it's not a big deal, that's sort of a joke between me and jason from freshman year at swarthmore, nothing more than that (and surely he has never tested the waters of this website). i am behind in schoolwork and really must pull it together tonight, plus the jays-dodgers game that i want to watch, so hopefully this will be the last daily living entry of the day. i really should work on the gay manuscript — in part, dedicated to you — and i hope you don't think that patrick is still in the picture, he's about 9 years off, i don't think about him much, except when i recall him while perusing the website, but rest assured that patrick is over (and possibly still with his girlfriend).

you are concerned about the mental illness. i've tried to ease your concern, but it's hard to do exclusively textually, and it would be better if we met. i assume you have some acquintance with mental illness — probably manic depression, specifically — maybe a parent or a sibling or a friend or an ex-bf (you don't have an ex-bf) — but i can deal, you can deal, and it will be generally fine. i'm safe. you don't have to worry about me. i'm like, the nicest guy.

i need to make amends over the phone with someone — it will be brief — so i am going to depart from wix dot com, but do at least register your visit for me, it would be a kind gesture. hope to see you soon —

xo michael morgan