Rachel's Ice Bath Bath House

dearest readers, andy pink on the tapa tapa, prepared to divulge the secrets of the ice bath —

rachel, who has the most energy of anyone i have ever met, and this coming from someone with a lot of energy, at his worst, runs essentially a healing arts practice, which she told me this morning is in the six-figures, and the fundamental component of the practice is the ice bath: submerging her clients in an ice bath for several minutes (perhaps longer; the paid sessions are for 60 minutes), the main issue that she deals with is control issues — like: "let go let god" from aa — and i think i'd like to try the service. it's probably super expensive, and while some clients book twenty-four 60 minute sessions at a time, i would really only have the funds for a single 60 minute trial run, to test the ice. anyway, she wants presence and logistics, so my intention is to work on my mother's alcholism, how it ruins our relationship, and how it is making it difficult for me to help my mom and her partner in their late years. ice bath sounds a little scary, but she is a lovely asian sprite, and possibly has the energy to help me out. i need a line of coke.

Hallucinations of Desire: Memoirs in Queer Manic Depression — is mostly ready. i'll probably stop writing fact sheet entries after next week, or turn the fact sheet into a mystery novel or a comic strip. the book is long, jon asked me if it is my thoughts or experiences, and i replied that is both, mostly. i think as an in toto text that the book well deals with homosexuality (specifically and generally) and my manic depression. "hallucinations" in the title refers to an empirical sensory fail and the text is more (in part) about delusions. but the "hallucination" word is a better fit for the sheer madness. the book is a quick read, insightful i think. it does not speak for all queer people or all manic depressive folks, but i think it is a valuable contribution to a burgeoning genre. i'll order 25 prints, distribute to friends and family, possibly send it over to the harvard bookstore (they sold one of my theory books) and see where it goes. published by bleakswan publications, it's sure to be an priori fail — but that's what i'm good at, and i'm happy doing it. it's been 10 years.

Manhunt: I was on manhunt.com last night, not looking, i'm too old (rich would say the blubber is the problem) for that, but there was a guy in one of the rooms, looked to be handsome, cut shot from the pecs, jerking off. this went on for hours in his room, unstopped. he mentioned that he does it every night for three hours, just his cock at the ready, stroking, exhibiting, chatting, and so on. turns out he is a lawyer at a boston firm, which confounded me, as i figured he might have something better to do with his time that publicize his masturbation. there is something wrong with gay men, i mean, no ordinary person would be stroking their dick everynight for three hours in front of his cam. each to his own.

february first is the day for rich. by then, i have a couple of months, i will be down to 155 lbs (and i'm disciplining myself no lower for him); i will do a photoshoot, either at the park with the boys or at connie's apartment, or mine, a veritable fashion spread for him. if he likes, he can pick me up in the rental car. abc/disney shuttered disney world, so we might have to go to universal, which is fine. or gatorland. i still want to stay at the disney hojo though. this will be the best first date ever, since we've been on so many first dates already.

peace, if it starts up again,

Andy Pink

bushy but still masculine