Thinking Cock

Andy — thinking cup rings —

Neither of the cute baristas is here so this trip has been useless, I'll get back to jeff soon. there is an older man here (who is probably younger than me, even) and he is handsome in his way, with some gray, some pudge, and about as short as peter. i take no interest in him — don't even imagine his torso, the object choice for my fantasies about patrick those years ago (if his friends at mit were to harass me i would just mention the truism that: all's fair in love and war, with the caveat that all's not fair in war). i admit there was a soft stalking component to my spproach to the old boy — at one point i found myself dancing for him, kick to four feet — but i think when it comes to love you go to the mat for yourself and the other guy. at least in guy-guy anti-normative relationships. it's not like i put the guy in a headlock.

i didn't jerk off yesterday, i felt so uninspired after class. the best time to jerk off is the morning, before i take my drugs. but i often feel groggy it the morning (because of last night's drugs) and so i jerk it mid-afternoon, after i return from the college, take a little time, edge it out, like an extended pursuit of the other.

my dick is beautiful, probably the cock i most want to taste, but i'll have to wait for that, in the least after i lose the 10 lbs of fattyness in my bellyness.

when i came down to park street this morning in pursuit of my hipster-loves, i went to the cheap mcdonald's down here on tremont and got in line for a good cup of coffee that i could drink prior to my swift entrance into thinking cup, where i would order my same order: large ice tea green tea (which — amazingly — as the same cost — $3.21 — as my drink from 1369, which is a small light roast (sludge) coffee — also at $3.21! this seems like a cosmic event, or truth — i drank the real coffee at mcdonald's that enabled me to skip coffee (sludge) at thinking cup, graduating up the day with an ice tea green tea, large.

point one: my drink at thinking cup is exactly the same price as my drink (as) at 1369. anyway, i got in the line at the mcdonald's on tremont, with this black man (short) standing by the counter, who asked me to buy him a small black coffee — small black, like him — with my order of a small 5 cream no sugar regular coffee. and i did it. i am such a good guy. it feels so good to use an innocent black man to boost my ego for less than $2. But more importantly, i think i may have made some headway toward ending racism. perhaps even toxic masculinity.

i am going to try to have sex within the next week. i will use grindr as the easiest way to do this. i will lift my usual 25-35 to 25-45. i'm getting old, and i can't expect to be the older brother (uncle) forever. i will stick to blonds probably, unless some brunette has especially nice eyes/face, or if just generally hot and styled properly. i'll keep you posted, and it is sure to be strictly blowjob. anal sex is so gross. what is wrong with you people?

the issue of harry styles has completely taken over the gay class. apparently there is something called "gay-baiting" (stupid term) that is a huge deal. it's even bigger than "cultural appropriation" (garbage critique).

andy's mixing for a trixing at home — you can find me at hurly and fifth, take the 69 (yay) if you must.

that's my vomit for you, for today —

love doc pink

with rachel, de-sexualized, but still "interesting" — look at those teeth!