dearest rich, i had the delusion that I was going to hell on the day that I overdosed on lithium. The delusion was that I would rise on July 4th if I killed myself at the end of June. I would spend a week in hell. essentially, the overdose was based on the delusion that i would rise if i killed myself with lithium, so the od was not a suicide attempt but a save my ass attempt. love andy I'm hotter than this.